Today I was feeling so negative, so very, very negative, all my thoughts we’re attacking myself and it made me feel like utter
It’s honestly taken a while for me to get to the point of feeling good about myself and right now I do, I like my hair, I’m happy with my body, I like my personality. I’m happy and after about 5 years of trying to get to that point I must admit I’m proud of myself for getting there.
I usually (and in the last 3 years have never had to) don’t care about how I dress for college, I’ll wear what I want, what I feel comfortable in wearing and I don’t give a damn what anyone else thinks of what I look like.
Today however, I stood in front of the mirror and wore 3 different sets of clothes before I finally settled on m (what I call) I don’t care jumper.
But thinking positive really is so important, today I felt physically ill because of my negativity, I had a pulsing headache because all I could think about was that I was
fat or I wasn’t pretty enough, I was really very conscious about every move I made today, I kept glancing at the person that made me feel that way and I felt like I was back in Year 9 being judged by a supposed friend and being told I wasn’t perfect enough for her.
But I did the wrong thing. I left and I didn’t stick it out, I should’ve I knew I should’ve but my stomach and my head totally didn’t agree with me. Luckily I’ve got a brilliant friend who I could tell this too and get it off my chest instead of just letting it eat me up.
Now I am usually like a campaign person for good body image and feeling good about yourself but honestly everyone has weak days and unfortunately today was one, so I’m going to take this opportunity to first promote the amazing organization I’m a member of and their amazing ‘Free being Me’ Campaign.
This fantastic programme encourages girls and young women to celebrate their individuality and to challenge the myth of the perfect appearance created by society. It’s available as two packs designed for 7-10 year olds and for 11-14 year olds
and I will also take it to say, no-one has the right to put you down, if you’re happy, if you’re comfortable then don’t let anyone tell you that you shouldn’t be. Everyone has weak days, honestly, everyone does, but just remember to keep your friends close and to talk about it with people, never let it eat you away inside, ever.